3 years

What do we ask for when we ask for nothing?
I find it so hard to describe all things you make of me
Show some faith, I want to beg, to scream, to plead
Trust in me, like I trust in you
Sincerely dear, do I trust in you

Ask me a thousand times and you will always be given the same answer
Run for a thousand years and I will be right here
See a thousand girls and I will still feel the same
There is no changing this

I will beg you to leave
You deserve better, you deserve happiness
I am constant concern
I am not the person who will bring you unconditional joy
I will not be there every moment of the day
I will not drop everything

But I will be here
for a thousand years I will remain right where I am
I will not leave
and when you ask me if I care I will say only for your happiness
That doesn't mean it wont hurt me
That doesn't mean I wont feel betrayed or abandoned

It means I understand, I have faith, and I trust in you.

Somehow this feels like normal
I will always be more loyal, trusting, and faithful than those I meet
But I hope one day this feels more like home than normal

I want to say I will drop everything for you
But I wont, I don't want to
I like you, that doesn't mean you're the only thing in my life

Don't act like you're better than me
Love isn't dropping everything to be with someone
Love is trusting someone and being loyal to someone
no matter how far you go, or what dreams you follow
And liking someone, being crazy about someone
is not ever holding them back or having expectations

Prayer to St Jude

To Saint Jude, Holy Saint Jude, Apostle and Martyr, great in virtue and rich in miracles, near kinsman of Jesus Christ, faithful intercessor of all who invoke your special patronage in time of need. To you I have recourse from the depths of my heart and humbly beg to whom God has given such great power to come to my assistance. Help me in my present and urgent petition, in return I promise to make your name known and cause you to be invoked. Saint Jude pray for us and all who invoke your aid. Amen.

Say 3 Our Fathers, 3 Hail Marys and 3 Glory Be to the Father.

Publication must be promised! I have used this prayer a few times now and it has never failed, no matter how extraordinary it sounds, it truelly has delivered miracles. Thank you St Jude

Courage

I always love seeing you,
you brighten my mood
You open up my eyes to all the good and wonderful things of the world
It was you, always you

When it started, I thought you were too good
I hoped to run into you,
to see you on the walkway, just passing by

Then you told me you liked me
oh for always me, my mind, my heart
why do they collide,
why does my mind interfere in my hearts business,
it knows no place there
and yet it holds strong
Oh silly mind of mine

And to see you
as always bring light to my day
bring perspective to my world

To remember only
I said you can love two at once
we are impossible, go for it
take her

and there she stands beside you